Waiting for the Lords will!

Sometimes it is really hard to wait for what the Lord wants for me. I had my interview with Davenport two days ago and even though my thought process is that it is in the Lords hands, it is still killing me to wait. I know that God has already planned out what happens next in my life but being human makes it so hard to wait for the next move. I have some exciting news though, Toby applied to Auto Cam in Grand Rapids and the HR person sent him some info about the Machinist Apprentiship program. So he told her that he is very interested so we are awaiting a reply back about that and waiting to see if I am going to have a third interview with Davenport. I feel like our life is all in Limbo right now. But at the same time the prospect of change is so exciting. Tomorrow I am helping in Olivia's preschool class. I am so excited to see how class goes and how she interacts with the other kids in school. I hope my presence doesn't make he act differently than any other school day. We'll see.... I am really excited about the prospect of going back to school if I get the DU job. I would be able to take 3-6 credit hours a semester paid by the University. So I know I already said all this but to learn new things that could potentially help someone or to help myself to be sucessful is very exciting. I guess I am at the point where I need something that is mine away from the house and my kids. I love being the center of the universe for my kids but to be a productive member of society again would be something I really need. I guess staying at home and not have a lot of adult interaction on a daily basis is really depressing. Thank goodness for my friend Mindy who walks with me during preschool. I don't think she know how much I look forward to those walks and getting to talk about life and just to get out. Mindy if you read this you are definitly a gift to me from God. He knew I needed your friendship and he led us to start our walks right when I needed it. So God and thank you Mindy. Well its been a long day and I am going to enjoy some time to myself. God give me the patience to wait. Goodnight.

Interview Day!!!

Today I had my second interview with Davenport university. I think it went really well. I was shocked when I left the building and looked at my phone to realize it took and hour and a half. WOW!!! Time flew by. I had a lot of questions for them and then they had a lot of questions for me. I felt like I really hit it off with both the people that interviewed me. When we were leaving the office when we had the interview the one girl told me that she also use to work for starbucks in target, lived in Middleville, and went to Western. So needless to say we stood around to shoot the breeze together for a few minutes after the interview. We'll see what happens. All I can do now is to pray that the people that are making the decisions about third interviews make the right ones. I hope it includes me but only God knows if I should work there or not. I am excited to find out though because I really want to go back to school for business managment. I think that is what I should have went to school for in the first place ( yes Aunt Faith you were right). We'll i'll update on facebook if I got to the next level or not. Think of me and the people making these life changing decisions in your prayers.

BURNED OUT!!!!!!

I love being a mom and I feel so fortunate that I was able to stay home with my kids for the last 2 years, but that is all about to come to an end. This is something that is very bittersweet for me. I love being at home with my kids but my husband works so much that I never get a break. I am pretty sure that regardless of what I say he is under the impression that being at home all day isn't as hard as having a job. Toby (my husband) says "being a mom is the most rewarding job". That may be true but even when you have the best job in the world you would need a break. Being a stay at home mom is like doing everything at the office. Including sleep. I am sad to not be home with my kids all the time (once I find a job) but I am also in need of a break. I just wish I had someone I trust that I could hire to watch my kids when i'm at work. My sister has my mom monopolized even though she is 35 minutes away and I don't think I want and extra hour and ten minute drive every day I work. I guess this is something that I need to let the Lord take over from me. Let your will be done God, show me the way. I do have an interview this Monday at Davenport University that I am super excited about. I think I would be perfect for the position so if it is Gods will maybe i'll have a new job as early as next week. I guess the whole point of this post was that I am feeling like an under appreciated over worked mom. I have to admit when my toddlers wrap their chubby wrists around my neck and give me a great big hug it makes it all worth while. Well I think this over worked and under paid employee is going to soak in the company tub (that sounds gross when you think of it that way). Tomorrow is Sunday and when i'm feeling down like this I always feel better after I hear a good sermon and have some good christian fellowship. Praise God!!!!

Party Day

WOW what a day. I am so exhausted! After all the party prep and then the party I am definitly ready to relax. The Princess tea party was a huge sucess. Thanks to all my great family that pitched in and helped. When you're a mom with young kids something as small as grandma changing this baby's diaper and grandpa getting this kid a drink so mom can work on a project for more than 2 consecutive minutes is like a blessing from above. So thank you family I appreciate you guys. There are two little princesses that made quite the hall today. Thank you to everyone that came and I had a great time. I will post more details tomorrow and try to put up some pictures.

Party Prep

So tomorrow we (my sister and I) are throwing a princess tea party birthday party for Zoey (my niece) and Olivia (my daughter). They will both be three and their birthdays are only 6 weeks apart. We thought it would be a fun thing for our families. I can not believe how much work it has been to throw a princess party for two little girls. I think maybe the problem is that my sister and I both had a vision of how the party would look and we both got a ton of decorations, also we didn't do the greatest job letting everyone in the family know the details. In short I really hope this little family tea party is really fun because I am beat after just preparing and decorating today. Ahhhhhh that is my sigh of relief at being able to sit down.
On a good note I watched my little cousin today so my Aunt could go to a women's retreat and her husband  could go to a gig for his band. What a bright spot in my day. This little guy is the sweetest little boy and I just couldn't get enough of him. You know how you are usually relieved when your babysitting and the parents get back. Well I was actually sad to see my little cousin go. He is such a blessing from God and I am so thankful that I had the opportunity to care for him today. I am looking forward to watching him again in the future.
Well Princess tea party here I come wish me luck.