Waiting for the Lords will!

Sometimes it is really hard to wait for what the Lord wants for me. I had my interview with Davenport two days ago and even though my thought process is that it is in the Lords hands, it is still killing me to wait. I know that God has already planned out what happens next in my life but being human makes it so hard to wait for the next move. I have some exciting news though, Toby applied to Auto Cam in Grand Rapids and the HR person sent him some info about the Machinist Apprentiship program. So he told her that he is very interested so we are awaiting a reply back about that and waiting to see if I am going to have a third interview with Davenport. I feel like our life is all in Limbo right now. But at the same time the prospect of change is so exciting. Tomorrow I am helping in Olivia's preschool class. I am so excited to see how class goes and how she interacts with the other kids in school. I hope my presence doesn't make he act differently than any other school day. We'll see.... I am really excited about the prospect of going back to school if I get the DU job. I would be able to take 3-6 credit hours a semester paid by the University. So I know I already said all this but to learn new things that could potentially help someone or to help myself to be sucessful is very exciting. I guess I am at the point where I need something that is mine away from the house and my kids. I love being the center of the universe for my kids but to be a productive member of society again would be something I really need. I guess staying at home and not have a lot of adult interaction on a daily basis is really depressing. Thank goodness for my friend Mindy who walks with me during preschool. I don't think she know how much I look forward to those walks and getting to talk about life and just to get out. Mindy if you read this you are definitly a gift to me from God. He knew I needed your friendship and he led us to start our walks right when I needed it. So God and thank you Mindy. Well its been a long day and I am going to enjoy some time to myself. God give me the patience to wait. Goodnight.